Only 14 days into 2013

Does the world

Truly wants to see what lies

Behind my well placed mask

My anger

Disappointments, tears

My desires especially if

They offend

Come take a sneak peak

Of what truly lies

Behind my well placed

Glittery smile

MValle

 14 days into the New Year and I feel like I am slowly letting my mask slip just a bit. Life is not all sugar and spice there is a bit of bitter in it. Just looking outside my window and the gloominess of the weather is enough to bring a gloomy mood but I am cool with the grey skies and rain it means I am still alive to frown a bit on the weather. What I am trying to do is build memorable moments of life for my girls, sister and family. We have taken so many pictures but haven’t developed them or printed them which is a waste…Guess we are so not good at the Scrap Booking but we are having more fun daily.

I think somewhere in floating in the backs of our minds we still are coming to grips with the fact that Cancer has silently snuck its way into are home. Silently it’s become part of our daily lives. To look at her my sister looks amazing you can’t tell that dreaded disease has made its way into her life. She is in great spirits which I feel l makes it too easy for us to forget.  Just a bit but it has become a major part of life it pushes us to do more enjoy it more.  Building great memory’s as we move on into the 2013 year while we inch closer to treatment. I am looking more towards the light at the end of that tunnel than anything else.

We all smile or frown during the day but do others really know what is going on? Honestly I doubt it. Not all of us let the reality of our lives bubble to the surface. I really don’t feel that others really care to hear about the gloom parts of our lives. It brings them at times to close to the grey shades of their lives and souls. My mask has dipped a bit to show what is truly lying underneath and all of it is not glittery more like destruction. Right now I am aiming it at Cancer.