Living Truthfully - Jason Collins

After reading the article that Jason Collins wrote as he not only peeked out the closet but opened it wide and stepped out. “I’m a 34 year old NBA center. I’m black. And I’m gay.” He is showing a different face to Black Gay men and hopefully will be the unexpected role model that young men struggling with their sexuality can look up to.

Quote a straight black man “His private life is his private life.” He has come a very long way and hopefully the world has also.

It’s time that we allow other’s to live their lives and their truth’s because what is done in behind their doors do not effect other’s. Life is extremely short and it is so much more enjoyable when we are our genuine selves and just enjoy life.

I have learned in the last few years to just enjoy life. Make the best of it daily and not worry about others. You cannot control the actions of others but you can face each day while trying to make the best of it as if it maybe your last. I wish Jason Collins all the luck with the upcoming NBA year and hopefully he will have a great support team behind him.

Congrats Ms Emeli Sande

WOW….My family and I have been listening to Emeli Sande….since early last spring and summer. She broke out into the mainstream media of the USA sometime late last year. Unexpectedly we heard a song of hers on the radio last month and got as excited as we drove in my truck home. It seems that the world is taking notices. It seems that she broke the Beatles record of the most consecutive weeks spent in the top ten U.K.s Official Album Chart “Our Version of Events” has been on the charts for 63 weeks…The Beatles record was 62 consecutive weeks in 1963 – 1964. You Go GIRL

No Wonder Women

My love of Wonder Women must have given me ideas of me actually being a Wonder Women. 29 days into 2013 and what have I learned to keep my opinions, concern and good intentions to myself. Quickly I am learning to place boundaries between myself and others basically to mind my darn business. No matter how good my intentions maybe I am not the one going through the situation it is not my place to comment on it. In the end the decision on how to deal with the issue being it treatment, friendship or life is not mind. The only person that I have control over is my own personal self. No matter how much I feel that I should fix other’s or make them bend to my will it’s no longer my concern. I have and will continue to work on myself, mental, physical and emotional.

 Perhaps I will become more of an introvert then I already am but life at this point can only get better because my outlook is to enjoy every day. Good thing I am slowly learning to enjoy myself and look at life so differently.  Just enjoying my day not looking at the past that I can no longer control or fix its done I can only hope for better in today. Taking a quick look back when did I become such a selfish person the world doesn’t rotate around me and I can no paint it in only color’s that I deem beautiful others have the right to paint their world in whatever fits them. The hardest thing in the world is letting go and allowing other’s control. Even when all you would like to do is hold them close to your heart. I am not Wonder Women and I certainly do not have a lasso.

Cracked Mask or Cracked Heart

you never wore a mask

it’s not your fault

that what I built up

in my little head

thinking that it was love

it’s not your fault

that I never had love

so to never have it

I thought what I saw in

you was truly beautiful

 was truly real

it never was it was my

foolish heart wanting

to be loved so much

that I fixed it on you

how unfair of me to

make you a knight in armor

it’s not your mask that

shattered because

 you never wore one

it was my heart that

came crashing so fast so hard

what remains is

glitter sprinkled all

over the floor

MValle

Cracked Mask or Cracked Heart

you never wore a mask

it’s not your fault

that what I built up

in my little head

thinking that it was love

it’s not your fault

that I never had love

so to never have it

I thought what I saw in

you was truly beautiful

 was truly real

it never was it was my

foolish heart wanting

to be loved so much

that I fixed it on you

how unfair of me to

make you a knight in armor

it’s not your mask that

shattered because

 you never wore one

it was my heart that

came crashing so fast so hard

what remains is

glitter sprinkled all

over the floor

MValle

Only 14 days into 2013

Does the world

Truly wants to see what lies

Behind my well placed mask

My anger

Disappointments, tears

My desires especially if

They offend

Come take a sneak peak

Of what truly lies

Behind my well placed

Glittery smile

MValle

 14 days into the New Year and I feel like I am slowly letting my mask slip just a bit. Life is not all sugar and spice there is a bit of bitter in it. Just looking outside my window and the gloominess of the weather is enough to bring a gloomy mood but I am cool with the grey skies and rain it means I am still alive to frown a bit on the weather. What I am trying to do is build memorable moments of life for my girls, sister and family. We have taken so many pictures but haven’t developed them or printed them which is a waste…Guess we are so not good at the Scrap Booking but we are having more fun daily.

I think somewhere in floating in the backs of our minds we still are coming to grips with the fact that Cancer has silently snuck its way into are home. Silently it’s become part of our daily lives. To look at her my sister looks amazing you can’t tell that dreaded disease has made its way into her life. She is in great spirits which I feel l makes it too easy for us to forget.  Just a bit but it has become a major part of life it pushes us to do more enjoy it more.  Building great memory’s as we move on into the 2013 year while we inch closer to treatment. I am looking more towards the light at the end of that tunnel than anything else.

We all smile or frown during the day but do others really know what is going on? Honestly I doubt it. Not all of us let the reality of our lives bubble to the surface. I really don’t feel that others really care to hear about the gloom parts of our lives. It brings them at times to close to the grey shades of their lives and souls. My mask has dipped a bit to show what is truly lying underneath and all of it is not glittery more like destruction. Right now I am aiming it at Cancer.

January is Cervical Health Awareness Month

January is Cervical Health Awareness Month which spotlight’s cervical health issues that include such as human papillomavirus (HPV) and cervical cancer. As women we hate going to the ObGny slipping into those straps, the discomfort of sliding down, while gazing up at the ceiling as our doctor probes us during that annual Pap smear examination. It’s that examination that may help with early detection of cervical cancer. Earlier detection helps with prevention and treatment options. It maybe embarrassing and uncomfortable but it may just save your life. Learn to pay attention to your body and changes that you are not comfortable with. Also do not be afraid to question your doctor. I go yearly and wait for the results. Younger women don't feel comfortable in your youth and take your health for granted. At this time I know of one young lady who is battling cancer at this time. Its best to be aware and to make the best decision to help keep you health and alive.