I had an amazing weekend and had the opportunity to chat it up with one of my fav friends. We discussed family’s and relationships and not only how much we need that in our lives but also the power that they have over us. The need to be as perfect as we can for our parents that it hinders our lives so much. For this person it has effected his decision to stay in the closet which has held back his freedoms in his life. At this time for him it is more important to please his mother and keep up that illusion of being heterosexual. The freedom that others have to hold their partners hand in public, kiss them or just show affection for someone that they love is not a freedom that he has. It moved me because he is making the sacrifice to keep his mother happy and not “break her heart” that he has given up a major part of his life for her. People who do not understand that it is not an easy life to live as a non heterosexual if you do not have love and support of family and friends to lean on! It’s so easy to hate or be afraid of those you believe our different but they hurt just like you do!
Truly i hide my heart
To please your sense of self
Your sense of right
Truly i hide my heart
While you smile and never wonder
Never wonder while happiness never
Reaches my eyes or dips into my soul
You pray for my happiness
Never will i be truly happy
While I hide my heart or true self
Unable to open my heart with you
Never being able to share my love
Would you not wish me happy?
Praying for my happiness
Well my happiness lies outside of your mind set
It is not what you claim is right
But it makes me happy
It makes me smile straight to my soul
M Valle 7/8/12
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