I have never understood the frustration of parents who fight for the rights of children with health conditions until this year. Crazy since this year has only involved 13 days so far I think luck has final left us. It’s been semi smooth in dealing daily with my daughter’s chronic health condition that requires insulin to keep normal blood sugar levels. In laymen terms she has Juvenile Diabetes for the past three years. It’s been a journey filled with tears, angry, smiles the understanding and acceptance of friends. Maneuver our way to dealing with raising a beautiful, intelligent, well rounded open minded and health child.
In attempt to improve the family’s health insurance I think I have just dug us in a bigger hole. It seems that with health insurance you either have a bigger chunk of your check taken up front or you pay more out of pocket. As I slap myself in the head know either way I end up loosing but it may have been better to take home a smaller check. It’s not as if I am not already stretching what I have to have my ends meet. Financial I don’t complain because realistically I know that there our others who are struggling way more then I am.
The honest truth is when I am struggling to figure out how I am going to keep my child as health as possible things start to unravel as I stay focus on the goodness in my life. Pay for all her medical coverage, keep her in braces, continue to cloth and feed her. It’s a bit stressful which I know is not good for anyone that lives or work with me. A cranky unhappy crazy lady that I become is the pits…it scares others. I am maintaining while putting on a smile as a friend suggested as I look into what I can do to make sure that my child stay’s health and happy.
12 days in to 2011 and I am trying to maintain my optimistic spirit that it’s going to be a wonderful year. I have taken to reading a book of daily mediations and yesterdays dealt with optimism keeping a positive attitude which is not an easy task. What stuck with me was the line “the human spirit is strong and gets strong still after each hurdle successfully cleared.” It reminds me that I have lived through worse and I most likely will face harder task as I continue to live. I have to continue to keep a positive attitude that life does get better.
Reference
Coopage, Eric V, (1993) Black Pearls Daily Mediations, Affirmations, and Inspirations for African-Americans, William Morrow and Company, Inc, New York , NY
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keep your head up boo! mommyhood doesn't get easier! And you're doing a good job as is!
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