Stupid Sometimes

sometimes you love me
i know this because of the
little kind things that you do
sometimes you hate me
i know this because of the
stupid little things that you do
my patience have flew the coop
leaving my emotions raw
eyes dry from too much tears
throat raw from screaming
damn as I end up screaming your name
while you trail kisses down my thigh
how do we end up like this?
sometimes you love me
i know this because of little things you do
sometimes you hate me
i know this because of the stupid little things I do

Valle M 5/12/11

For the Love of Band

First Chair

My daughter has made First Chair which means that she is the premier musician playing the Euphonium for her 6^th grade band class. She will be the one to take the lead for Euphonium section. I am very proud of her especial since she was placed into band by me under duress. She wanted to be part of the art program but I wanted her to step out of her comfort zone. She is good at art has a great eye for color, sketches very well and she is even good behind the lens of a camera. The compromise was to try band for a year and if she really did not like it then she was free to join the art program.

After a few months she fell in love with band. Put the time in to learn to read music, how to properly hold and play her instrument and play music. At the time she was a trombone player and I was starting to think perhaps I was mistaken with putting her into band. She is very dedicated to her new instrument the Euphonium because she puts in the work and loves learning new pieces and playing them around the house. All of the hard work over the past eight months has led her to being first chair. Her smile could have lit up a Christmas tree when she announced that she scored 98 out of 100 on her playing test. Her reward is first chair for the Euphonium section and a very proud mother.  

When I guided her towards band I am not sure what I expected. Along with a bit of guilt that perhaps I should have let her go with art. I just wanted her to take advantage of different opportunity’s available to her. Try new things and have fun while enjoying playing an instrument. She showed me up by truly enjoying playing music and working very hard to play well! She inspires me and shows me that stepping out of your box can be a great thing. I try to do what I preach by stepping are of my comfort zone and trying new things. I am trying to just enjoy life and go for it!

 

Condoms

In the May issue of Elle Magazine Will.I.am tells the magazine that women who have condoms in their house are ‘just tacky”.  Sorry Wil.I.am in this day and age women who carry condoms love themselves nothing tacky about placing our selves first. AIDS and HIV are still not curable there our still a slew of STD’s out in the world. It is important for women to take sexual health into their hands and carry condoms with them. In the heat of the moment if he doesn’t have one is it not excellent to pull out your own condom to continue.

How is carrying a condom tacky it protect not only from STD’s and unwanted pregnancy’s.  Both men and women have sexual needs why does the world act as if women should not enjoy sex as much as men. I am a firm believer of protecting my body, it is my temple and I love it. As women we exercise, eat well, like to look beautiful when we go out so it should be no issue in adding a condom to your purse with lips stick when heading out. We can not let something as important as sexual health in the hands of someone else when we can take the steps to protect ourselves.

As a parent I have been discussing STD’s, pregnancy and condoms with my daughter for about four years know. Yes absence is a great idea but we have all been young and honestly we know that passion can over rule at times. With that said I prefer for her to pull out her own condom to reduce risk of any unwanted problems. I am drilling into her head that a condom is need during sex at all times and testing for STD’s is a regular part of your routine health check up. Yes she is eleven but I want her armed with information and make condoms ingrained into her mind and soul.

We know that HIV and Aids is still a major part of our community’s it still like a dirty little secret. Maintaining health life styles is more important then not discussing sex, sexual orientation and condoms. It protects no one I feel that it harms more to send children out in the world without arming them with important information. As adult women we need to do whatever it takes keep us health. The only thing that is tacky about women carrying condoms are the men that feel that they should not wear them. Wil.I.am revaluates what makes a woman tacky because understanding her sexual needs and taking the means to protect her self is not.

Wil.I.am

The Girls Are Fine

Its amazing over the years my family has spread around. Leaving me at times on this island with residence made up of two girls and a dog full of laughs, jokes, yelling and procrastination. I love it most days while I wonder if my girls will need to lie on a coach one day pouring out their hearts to a Psychologist. Yesterday morning I was greeted with breakfast of eggs, waffles and juice along with goodie bowl of all my favorite snacks.

Mother’s Day meant to me that I am not doing a bad job raising my girls. They are simple amazing little people with home made cards, tees and apron’s that summed it up best we love you. I love them just as much perhaps more including my dog!!!! The girls are fine I should just enjoy them since they grow up so quick and just enjoying life.

Toni Braxton has Lupus

Toni Braxton has Lupus which I did not know until watching her show last night. I knew that she had a heart condition – this condition which she revealed last night to her family was caused by her Lupus. Watching her last night what stuck with me was the fact that she said that the life expectance is not high and that she worry’s about that because she has kids. She seems to be doing well but she did state that she does become fatigued quickly; stress is not a friend to her and just needs to relax at times.

Lupus has been put on my radar because a family friend’s daughter has just been diagnosed with the illness. I am a softy when it comes to children so I did a little reading to familiarize myself with the illness. At this time all is well with her and hopefully she will stay that way. My world is better when children stay health and it tilts just slightly when they are sick.

Lupus defined by the Mayo Clinic staff:

Lupus is a chronic inflammatory disease that occurs when your body's immune system attacks your own tissues and organs. Inflammation caused by lupus can affect many different body systems, including your joints, skin, kidneys, blood cells, heart and lungs.

Lupus occurs more frequently in women, though it isn't clear why. Four types of lupus exist — systemic lupus erythematosus, discoid lupus erythematosus, drug-induced lupus erythematosus and neonatal lupus. Of these, systemic lupus erythematosus is the most common and serious form of lupus. Some symptoms may include fatigue, fever, weight loss or gain, joint pain, stiffness and swelling, a malar rash on face that covers the cheeks and bridge of the nose.  A short list of risk factors, lupus is more common in women, most often diagnosed between the ages of 15 and 40, more common in blacks, Hispanics and Asians.

Over the years I have heard about Lupus and never realize how serious of an illness it is. Toni Braxton is very courageous to share with the world about her condition. Allow cameras to follow during her cardiology exam, breaking the news to family members and with the public at her award ceremony. She is putting a face to a disease that most do not know of unless they are diagnosed or someone close to them becomes diagnosed. It takes inner strength, a plan on staying health and the love of family along with friends to help deal with a chronic illness for individuals or to parent a child with a chronic illness.

                                                                             

Toni Braxton

                                                                                                      

Reference

Mayo Clinic staff. (2010) Definition. Retrieved from http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/lupus/DS00115

Barack Obama has a Sense of Humor

I wanted to share this footage from April, 30^th 2011 White House Correspondents’ Association Dinner. All I have to say if the President of this Country can sit back and laugh at some of the attacks on character, presidency, citizenship and what he has done in the past two plus years. He addressed most of those who have criticism that entire he has or has not done with a little comedy and humor. It is time for me to not take everything too seriously, or as if it is an attack on me and just chuckle a little like President Barack Obama. Sit back and enjoy his humor while I remember that it is OK to laugh at my self.

Reference

Blackamericaweb.com (May 2, 2011) Obama and Meyers Joke at the Correspondents’ Dinner. Retrieved from http://www.blackamericaweb.com/?q=articles/entertainment/gossip/28078

Thank You to all that serve in the US Military

Osama Bin Laden has been confirmed dead via a DNA match. Watching CNN this morning which is unusually for my morning rush just to confirm what I reviewed on my phones internet was correct. I was amazed to watch the footage of Americans outside of the White House celebrating the death of what has been the al-Qaeda face of terror since September 11^th 2011. My daughter did not understand that people were celebrating the death of a person.

It’s hard to explain that to a child but what I said is I think it was more of a huge breath being taken by people who have been living with fear. Fear of what happened ten years ago can happen again and we our not as safe and protected as we think. Hopefully this may help those who not only lived through 9/11 but who lost loved one, friends and co-workers feel a bit closer to closure. It’s a piece of history that will live with all of us who lived through it clearly in our hearts and minds.

I am thankfully for all those in the military who put their lives on the line for this country daily. All that they do and for the family and friends that they leave behind to serve and protect. A huge thank you to the special operations forces that took part on the raid yesterday and a bigger thanks to their family’s for there sacrifices also. Thanks to the commander and chief of this country along with his staff. This country will continue to protect its people from attacks and hopefully unite the people of this country to move us forward.

“And tonight, let us think back to the sense of unity that prevailed on 9/11. I know that it has, at times, frayed. Yet today's achievement is a testament to the greatness of our country and the determination of the American people. President Barack Obama”

Reference

CNN Wire Staff. (May 2, 2011) Transcript: Obama announces the death of Osama bin Laden. Retrieved from http://www.cnn.com/2011/WORLD/asiapcf/05/02/bin.laden.announcement/index.html