Never Satisfied

“Never stay satisfied if in a routine means I am comfortable. If I am comfortable it means I am not challenging myself. This ultimately means I am settling and not growing!” This answer my sister gave me in regards to her career. I stopped to look at my life that has hit a rut in the past few months. Once I completed Grad School I have been afloat with little to no direction to my next step in life. At this time has been filled with trying to stay afloat of bills that come with raising children and building a family that I may have lost focus on personal goals. They are what keep us motivated to challenge ourselves in daily life, work, and even raising our children. I have let myself become comfortable its time to shake things up try new things while stepping out of my comfort area. I demand this of children so why should I not demand this of myself. A friend yesterday forward to me information about life and career coaches. I have made the decision to try this program out to help me with direction in the next step of my life and career.

shattered

yesterday as we laid

limbs intertwined

where you ended

and I began

unable to distinguish

today you looked

right through me

as if we

never laid

the beauty of what

we shared

know stained

as you move

on to the

next

leaving me to

examine the shards

of my heart

Valle, M 3/30/11

(Inspired by a conversation last night with my bestie)

Thing Called Love

that thing called love

destroys the sanity

of my soul

     while dragging my heart

     with it to the depths

of misery

             turning me into a whirlwind

             of destruction  

             taking all the good

                         the last of my sweetness

 with it

                        As I stand here

surveying the destruction

that I caused to my heart

not

            you

                        but me as I believed

                        in that stupid

thing we call love                     

                                                                                    Valle, M 3/23/11

Inspiration from a friends Facebook post

on 3/23/11 she should kow who she is.

Love you girl!

Fireworks Trilogy Part III

Fireworks

Salute

to the one that holds my heart

Life
I am sorry I have strayed away from you this long
A toast

lets us live like there is no tomorrow

Yes
I know that "together" does not mean "forever"

and yes
I am aware our love is not guaranteed
My actions

are thee only thing that is considered permanent
And to this I say

“Let us live to the fullest & leave the rest to bleed to death”
Life, I love you

dEV!Ouz

THE KEY TO SELF-EXPRESSION IS

Kim Rosen

THE KEY TO SELF-EXPRESSION IS…Dismantling the walls between our inner experience and our outer expression. We often survive by presenting a false self to the rest of the world. But at some point we have to let that go because it becomes a prison.

From the April 2011 issue of O The OPRAH Magazine

The prison called our selves that we lock up our hurts, anger, doubts, and mistakes that can not be taken back. I take all of mine and shove them into a little black box and lock them up inside were they never see the light of day. Every once in a while life takes it toll on me and that little box starts to unravel and the world sees a side of me that is not perfect but very human and defiantly my inner experiences. My past has dictated my issues with trust, love, friends, and family tightening my inner circle. While I keep emotions locked tightly within and sharing very little.

Attempt to keep my outer expression as positive, nice - normal and happy as possible. My eclectic sides along with opinions that do not fit the norms of society slip out.  It is what I call self preservation so that I fit into what I see is life while keeping my heart and soul intact. In my attempt to fit into society’s so called norms more like fitting in and not sticking out in the corporate world. What I have realized the world needs individuality and true self expression. With maturity I have shed a lot of my walls and with my true self loud, colorful, brash, fun, and a nurturer. We can imprison ourselves while we protect ourselves afraid of sharing ourselves with the world. I am slowly learning to let the world just get to know me warts and all!

Trilogy by dE\/|0uz

To discover who you are, one must channel their inner self. Life brings constant change never adapt to your current surroundings. The element of surprise is not anticipating the attack. Live your days as there are no nights…

«Trilogy»
I. Folktale

II. The Element of Surprise

III. Fireworks

dE\/|0uz

Demise

does Death creep up

slowly with it’s cap

blowing behind it

tap it’s next victim

lightly on the shoulder

look within the soul

without fight slowly

life is gone

Or

does Death quickly

come upon an

unsuspected foe

snatching them

to unsuspected

place called demise

Either

way the living left

to grieve while celebrating

in the life of the

taken

Valle, M 3/16/11